Life is truly what you make it. If you expect it to be bad, for your luck to suck or for things to just go wrong in general, you can be guaranteed, they will. Is life always easy? No way, but you can always choose how to respond to the crap you can't control.
I'm choosing for life to be good. Have the last few months been easy? I'd have to respond with a no. Have I wanted to throw things and scream at the world? The answer would be yes. But I read a book called The Secret. It's simply about the stuff you put out in the universe (whether positive, negative or otherwise), will come back to you. If you put positive thoughts out there, those thoughts will come back to you. It was compared having a song stuck in your head. The more you think about the song, the more it gets stuck in your head. Same thing when you are miserable in your negative thoughts. When it feels like you can't get out of an unhappy rut, it's because you are keeping yourself there. If you keep thinking negative thoughts, they will become overpowering. One positive thought can steamroll into thousands more. Am I always happy? No, but I've been working on being positive - even when I don't think there is anything to be positive about. And the things I can't control I just have to give to God, because they are things I don't have any control over. But I'll continue to choose who I react to the the things I can't control.
So, through reading this book I realized something. I finished school almost three years ago, and was so happy to be done school that I forgot to set another dream, another goal. Without dreams and goals we really just meander our way through life in a pointless direction. It's no wonder I've been unhappy with where my life was at this past year. I lacked any focus and for that reason, I didn't care much either. So now, I've got a new goal, a new purpose. And while I achieve that goal, I will stay in Lloydminster, and I am choosing to be happy with my job (even though there are some things I'd like to change). I know I still have more to learn there, and I'm looking forward to where the next few years will take me, because I know it will be good!
