Another year has passed....

May 16. Seven years has come and gone since I said my last goodbye to Mom and she slipped into another world. Seven years today since my life changed forever. I miss her so much each and every day and its hard knowing I will never again get the chance to tell her I love her ever again. I just wish people would be happy for the good things they have in their lives instead of just focusing solely on the negative. While I will never get the chance to see Mom again on this earth, I know that I was blessed to have such a wonderful mother. She was truly my best friend.
As well, a week ago Monday, one of my friends passed away after a two year battle with cancer.
So when you have the overwhelming urge to complain about something small and trivial, focus on the good things instead.

It's fixed

Well, my computer is back in one piece again. I spilled iced tea on it a week ago and the letter V quit working. I called Dell, they sent out a new keyboard, and I had to replace it myself.
If you have been wondering, that is why I haven't been posting anything. That and I have had better weeks. But that is for another post, because I have to get back to work now.

Another Saturday

Well, today is May 3. Today I am happy and thankful for great friends who make me laugh. Where would each of us without these fantastic people?
I am also thankful for my health.
That's all for today. Just wanted to share my positive thoughts for the day. If you'd like, leave me a comment and your positive thought for the day.

'Tis May

Well, another May is here. For years even the thought of this month made me shudder as I thought about having to deal with yet another anniversary of Mom's death. In just two short weeks, it will be seven years since that proverbial rug was pulled from under me and my world was torn completely apart when I lost my Mom - my best friend. Seven years since I last heard her voice, saw her smile, heard her laugh. A loss so huge that left a gaping hole in my life and in my heart, never to be filled. Not one single day, one single moment goes by that I don't think of her and miss her beyond description. She was truly my best friend and I feel truly blessed to have been her daughter and to have had her as my Mom for 23 wonderful years.

But life does go on. I could have chosen to be a victim of life's tragedies, never happy, always looking back and hanging on to the past that wasn't there anymore. Bringing myself down and everyone else unfortunate enough to be in my self destructive path. I was really negative for a short time, and I felt completely justified in my misery. I had just lost my Mother and my heart and my life were broken into a million pieces.

I won't lie. For years, during the entire month of May, I would simply retreat within myself. I denied it was happening, but I was miserable and negative the whole time. Those with Mothers don't realize how insanely commercialized it actually is. Instead of honouring the person my Mom was, I chose to live in negativity during that month, not wanting to see anything positive about it.

Recently, I've decided to be happy and thankful for at least once thing per day. While at first this simple task seemed hard, it is getting easier every day. Instead of wallowing in self-pity throughout the year, and especially during May, I am choosing to look at what is good in my life. Ninety-nine per cent of the time, there is always something positive that can be found in any situation. And each day it gets easier to find that positive thing and it's helping me become more positive in general. And I hope I can help others be more positive as well.

I found an African proverb on the internet that says,

"When you cross someone on your path who is more committed to their hatred than you are to your love, then their hatred will take the place of your love.”

The moral of this proverb is that you need to make the commitment to yourself that you will walk with positive thoughts and have joy for life.

Don't get me wrong. Life isn't always a bowl of cherries. I still miss Mom more than I can ever describe, but I am honouring her by enjoying my life, just as she enjoyed hers. If a situation that I can change is bringing me down, then I should take the steps to change it, and if its a situation I can't change, then I should change the way I look at it.

We are all going to have those 'blue days' and I know that its alright for me to take that time to deal with things that are going on in my life, it's just when the blue days become chronic.