My new set of wheels :)

So, after a long wait and many frustrations with my Tempo, I have finally upgraded. This is Karma. Isn't she pretty?



Oh, and it's now 39 days until I get to see Garth Brooks!!!! I wonder if I will be able to meet him?

LIVING THE DREAM

I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL AUGUST 6! IT'S GOING TO BE THE BEST DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE! WOOOO HOOOO! C'MON EVERYONE, LIVE YOUR DREAMS!

On my lunch break ...

I could say this months sucks. I have to move, my car broke down, I am broke and well, it's May. I don't need to say much more than that. But I won't say this month sucks. This month is what it is - maybe a little challenging :) But just like any other month during the year, full of ups and downs. I won't let the downs define who I am, and I won't play victim to any of the crap life hands me, because life will hand us all crap from time to time. The question is will you stand at the sidelines, waiting for life to pass you by or will you take charge, decide what you truly want, and go from there? The decision is yours, just as the decision is mine in my life.
And besides ... I've got August 6 to look forward to, and no matter how frustrated I may get or how broke I may be between now and then, I know it will all be worth it when I finally get to see Garth.
So choose your path, choose your destiny and don't wait for other people to define who you are. And if you wait for other people to define you - don't play silent victim.
Over and out. Lunch is over, and I need to get some work done.

After midnight

It is just after midnight. 12:13 a.m. to be exact. I went to bed earlier than my body thought I should, and now I am awake. I tossed and turned for a short while, but that didn't turn into sleep - although I may have gotten close a few times - and now I'm killing some time on this lovely little machine called the computer. I hear the whirling of the fan and not much else. Perhaps I'm hungry, but that would require getting my butt out of bed to go drink some milk. Although the more I think about it, the more I'll want to get up and have some. haha.
But that is all. I suppose I should try that thing they call sleeping. Hopefully I don't have anymore strange dreams that Abbie is going to boil the cats because she is out of food.
Yep, my alarm will be going off in six hours. Oh the fun :)

Positive thoughts

Life is truly what you make it. If you expect it to be bad, for your luck to suck or for things to just go wrong in general, you can be guaranteed, they will. Is life always easy? No way, but you can always choose how to respond to the crap you can't control.
I'm choosing for life to be good. Have the last few months been easy? I'd have to respond with a no. Have I wanted to throw things and scream at the world? The answer would be yes. But I read a book called The Secret. It's simply about the stuff you put out in the universe (whether positive, negative or otherwise), will come back to you. If you put positive thoughts out there, those thoughts will come back to you. It was compared having a song stuck in your head. The more you think about the song, the more it gets stuck in your head. Same thing when you are miserable in your negative thoughts. When it feels like you can't get out of an unhappy rut, it's because you are keeping yourself there. If you keep thinking negative thoughts, they will become overpowering. One positive thought can steamroll into thousands more. Am I always happy? No, but I've been working on being positive - even when I don't think there is anything to be positive about. And the things I can't control I just have to give to God, because they are things I don't have any control over. But I'll continue to choose who I react to the the things I can't control.
So, through reading this book I realized something. I finished school almost three years ago, and was so happy to be done school that I forgot to set another dream, another goal. Without dreams and goals we really just meander our way through life in a pointless direction. It's no wonder I've been unhappy with where my life was at this past year. I lacked any focus and for that reason, I didn't care much either. So now, I've got a new goal, a new purpose. And while I achieve that goal, I will stay in Lloydminster, and I am choosing to be happy with my job (even though there are some things I'd like to change). I know I still have more to learn there, and I'm looking forward to where the next few years will take me, because I know it will be good!

Where is the Christmas spirit?

With only one week until Christmas Day, I can't find any Christmas spirit? I'll be honest with you. I haven't started Christmas shopping and would be quite satisfied if the presents somehow bought themselves. I have nothing in the place that remotely looks festive, and to be truthful, I like it that way. I change any radio stations when a holiday song comes on -- in fact, I don't think I've listened to one Christmas song the whole way through. You may just want to call me Scrooge.

Thinking ...

It's December. The second day of December to be technical. The twelfth month of the year.
I'm sitting in my apartment and the door is rattling, my roommate and her boyfriend are in her room watching a movie, and I am sitting on my ugly green couch.
And I'm thinking. Thinking about a lot of things. Thinking about the past and everything I miss. Thinking about Mom and wishing I could see her one more time. Thinking about the present. Thinking about changes I need to make to be happier. And realizing I need to set some new goals to make myself happier. Thinking about the future and wondering what the changes will bring. Thinking about what will happen and life and just trying to believe everything will work out the way its supposed to. Thinking about things I have no idea how to fix, and thinking about how I've just got to learn to deal with the situation when it makes me feel so helpless, sad, frustrated, angry, etc. etc. etc. I'm thinking about how hard this month is going to be and wishing it could magically be January already. And I'm thinking how life can be so cruelly unfair.
Essentially, I'm just thinking. So if you are thinking too, drop me a line. We can think together ... I think.